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September 9th, 1998

by Renaps and Julia Sane

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2.
hey ! I just do it that’s the difference- sit on your couch again while I collect the interest they SAY they workin’ but they just be takin’ pictures, only shots they take is rock paper scissors rough ridin’ cuz a bish don’t have a license don’t catch me sleepin’ you can see under my EYElids My kids the smartest on this whole fkn island, they got their brain on LOUD and turn their mouth on silent__ eat the chip n’ dips the Only time we violent drop a tracks the only time you hear the sirens drop the smack you hear the world’s smallest violins And you see every color, ROY G Bih, vIOLet crystal clear livin’ harder than we diamond lookin’ for your mind? it’s somethin’ you are not findin’ y'lookin’ for the hottest shit, but you behind them i’m bein honest even though I’m always Lion, I will clock you with my timin’ i’m outgoing, but I dine in sure i’m scared as shit, but climbin’ sure i’m broke cuz fuck verizon, Always seein’ NEW horizons, give me something to rEACH- tryin’ to grill my ass? carmelize the peach ! cuz they All like that can’t get pastor, now they preach ! future MInd, i’m a disease- If they can’t stand you then they fallin’ to their knees cuz i’m polite I like the thank you, with the pleas Don’t need a diss track I just leave in disbelief Cuz dis right here is ME no one else significant ask me to be different at my job- I’m just quittin’ it- grab the candle & I already be littin’ it- put it on my forehead, i’ma unicorn legitimate i’m on my own shit like umami, i’m the licorice can’t compare it to nobody on the internet spill it from my lips and everybody- they be quiverin’_ don’t call me magnificent just call when you want intellect the moon is full of you, you wanin’, or you waxin’, we all stressin’ and relaxin’- why is one thing satisfaction? yeah, you get mad cuz you can’t handle this- introduce myself in every word I ever spit the only writer that’ll make you wanna reminisce -back to all my verses, sonic boOm, I am the genesis I am. and it’s not about a genius- Pay attention to your people like we leaders. Pay attention to your kids without the Jesus Don’t let the shit we cannot see come inbetween us- I am the greatest. let me give you all my reasons: I will never interrupt your meal whenever you are eatin’, I will always be your oxygen as long as you are breathin’, I will always let you sleep when you’re awake to keep you dreamin’ I will give you everything when I cannot cuz that’s the meanin’ I am.
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i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it _____________ i go to bed crying i wake up and im lyin everybody knows what’sup but me- everybody knows what’sup with me i can’t see with the pain so blurry, i make the bed in a hurry, i make the coffee extra strong with even more sugar fixin my shit but i can’t even look up- I am numb -can’t even look up I’m numb why even stick out ya tongue? i tuck mine under my shoelaces tuck my brain under my two faces none of them fake sometimes were just 2 people one just looks more evil,bc they can’t see why we gotta be here they can’t see why they can’t make that clear I’m so useless, i get fear I’m so useless, i get fear I’m so useless, i get fear I’m useless, i don’t know how to do this a. cuz u never taught me b. cuz i never taught me c. cuz i just don’t care d. all of the above.- e. -thats what I’m running on thats what I’m running on less of a person i’ve become a marathon, I just keep runnin’ til everythings blended don’t even know where I started or ended I only see forward if my arms extended but fuck, i’m so good at pretendin'- I hide them with smiles, I stay unattended I look up again and who saw- 1 in 10 did maybe, —whoever fills the role of my baby always spends their love fully but should know no one can save me i am no life savings i have no tips, no checks in my pocket only, Xs and eXs and they all think they can stop it but i’m a go-getter, and If I don’t believe in me i’ma no-never no, i’ll never get to feel the love feel the love feel the love feel the love feel the love feel the love feel the love feel the love i guess i filled in all of the above i’m just feelin' all of the under I just.. I jus.. i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i don’t feel the love i just fill it up i, i just fill it
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I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to I reach for the stars but I hear car alarms I reach for the cloud but it has no arms- it has no ears it has no tears to affect me, it cries for itself I need a sign to direct me or the inside of a seashell (as long as a she tells) I always wanna compose but my ok hand’s lefty and i’m alrighty, I keep myself composed a yin and yang, alone and gang, tai chi, I can’t go to your house party unless you invite me - an old fashioned in a new glass, a v sharp mind and a b flat ass, i’m a musician- a used car with a new transmission, but the wheels missin’ and I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to The trees have arms but they bark silence- the streets ground me with quiet asphalt and loud sirens i’m quiet it’s their fault they’re loud sirens I want lemonade I find lemons with my umami long legs, my 6 senses, my 8 leggings, my 10 fingers- I count em’ all to align me before the bad thoughts linger, I want to be a singer but I can’t hit “those” notes so I write em I used to shine apples now I just bite em, now I confide in Him, not god, my book and pen- they’re rather masculine it’s whatever mask i’m in, and it’s whatever cuz they’re all me then and now then and now- I wear my own hand me downs I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to so I look out for you * I grew in the wake of you all that was destroyed the things you took away they rebuild themselves every single day I grew in the wake of you and I thank you I thank you I grew I thank you I grew I grew I grew * I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to I have no one to look up to so I look out for you so I look out for you for you
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vulnerable 03:26
Follow me so you can unfollow chokin' on the girl cuz you can’t swallow Please~ Don’t Forget to forGET to invite me Any like you gettin’ prolly un-like-ly Trust- In god they do, But they don’t trust in me and you, In kids in school- Unless it’s a manmade ruler, they can’t measure it How much cents in the meter to make sure they gettin shit ? Make sure you look at everyone up and down Make sure you look at everyone up and down The more you do it, more their knees on ground The more you do it, more their knees on ground- The bees don’t sound too loud right now That means the worlds dyin’ and your “woke” too loud That means the world dyin’ and your face too proud to face the people livin’ in the dirt so sound_ Dirt so sound Dirt so sound- Dirt don’t sound so bad right now * Red lemonade I’m in hell, i'm on fire Gimme ice in the drink & I’ll never get tired Ice in my wine, guess I’ll never be sane * There’s no right way to do these things Only shit that’s scarys when you stay the same They thinkin they got these almighty brains, well NO one does Better take a number If you thinkin you were different then you’re 6 feet under Here, take my number Make me younger Make me wonder If you’re mind a roof or Straight to the gutters, I’m Straight to your mother Queer to the world, I’m A little bit boy and a little bit squirrel The clam, not the pearl I’m always cookin up greatness Selfish, shellfish, Know me on a first name basis Mollusk, I demolish what you thought you knew in college, keep you growin' in your solace cuz when the World go breakin their promises, I won’t, I won’t - Don’t give you lip, I give you teeth Don’t give you write, I give you read Don’t give you shades I give you see so DRINK UP, I give you tea Cuz the word on the street is I’m just bein me Is I’m just bein me Is I’m just bein me I could write for speed Couldn’t spit for shit But I’m just bein' me So I never quit But don’t think I didn’t think about quittin' the world Cuz I thought that often It’s like you think about death And they see your skin soften, Well I’m scared for you if you haven’t - Cuz you rly start livin when you can rly admit it That you did That you did We just get taller but we stay the kid Whachoo think this is ? You just have more responsibility You just have more reason to want nobility No excuses in this bitch No one useless in this bitch You just lazy or you wish You just crazy or you miss, and it’s done- Well ima keep tryin cuz I be the 1 Wanna be the one with me? We can be the 2 & multiply this city We can be the 3 if Moma Met the Whitney 4 a minute We could put our whole art in it til the Heart sing, Violin intestings Pullin my heart strings Let’s let it go on the park swings, &, If you do no-things, you better LOVE talkin bout the weather cuz.. Whether or not you hearin me it makes nothing better I’m standing in the heat with my sweater and complaints would be errors cuz, WHY WOULD I WEAR A SWEATER IF I DIDNT WANT TO SWEAT, DUH- I KNOW WHAT IM DOING SO GO TAKE A FKN SEAT IF YOU CAN’T STAND THE TREAT I STAY TRICKIN’ YOUR DAY LIKE A HOLLOWFEEN I AM EMPTY AND MEAN WHENEVER I SEE YOU SAY YOU WANNA BE ON A SCREEN AND DO NADA BC YOU ONLY DREAM WHEN YOU’RE ASLEEP, YOU BETTER KNOW BOTH EYES GOT BOTH GLEAMS ON ME MY VISION DOUBLE TEAMS, PRECISION DOUBLE CONED SOFT SERVED WITH RAINBOW SPRINKLES ON A WAFER CONE, you HEARD ME HAVE A FACE FULL OF WRINKLES BY THE TIME I'M 30 AND IM GIVING MY THANKS LIKE A TURKEY CUZ I FEED ALL THE PEOPLE WHO SCARE ME AROUND FAKE HOLIDAYS FAKE HARMONY AND REAL HOMINY AND REAL HARM TO ME AND REAL LOVE FOR THINGS THAT DON’T FEEL REAL TO ME MY FRIENDS ARE MY MATERIAL MY MILK INSIDE MY CEREAL, MY MUSIC IS TOO LYRICAL, OVER THEIR HEADS, NOT HEARING YOU, but that’s ok I want you to replay this shit anyway..
6.
I lost my wallet twice this month, I Lost my sight this month, things never meant this much, I had my identity cards in there, I don’t think I really cared, I thought about mine with the plastic away from me, I was reminded of what I had pushed to the sides of my plates, how feeling you is innate, I smiled through weights, I turned myself upside down so the pulls didn’t frown me, I fell for the push & paid my own bounty- truth, it’s astounding. i’m grinning- all this old pain brains new beginnings- A part of me seems to fall to my knees where i’m still standing- overly choosing not to understand, we, love hurting, we love learning, we talk dirty, we respond too early- I am a late bird, but I catch the worm anyway, bc i’m the worm anyway, I’m late to catch myself, I’m early to catch somebody else- tell em it’s ok- The moon shows up in the light of day, sun shines thick, but the cold it stays shivering, but it keeps me UP so the words stay glimmering, gold & honest silvers of mangoes and cinnamon- * Like the longest winters we freeze and begin again, it’s Never kind- we Never find, how to keep us all warm so Never mind That shit, I was born alone, that’s how it happened- Spending’ time with, drawing’ on napkins, yea I was that kid- Scared inside my house, but outside laughin’ Since I was 5 or, just alive I can’t remember the number but shit, I been sittin’ in traffic, --I think it’s just sitting in me now ---- I think it’s just sitting in me now---- ,never been a pro, but I found it out, when I * Lost my wallet, yeeeeeeeeaaa when I lost my wallet, lost my wallet when I lost my when I lost my when I lost my wallet lost my wallet when I lost my wallet when I lost my wallet
7.
vent elation 02:54
you make your leaves fall sharp but no one’s in the woods, so they’ve fallen in the dark lay it on me, down bed feathers you’ve forgivin’ all that passed, but it doesn’t make you better, no don’t lay it on me, I don’t praise no body if you’re lookin’ for attention don’t wave at the party you make your leaves fall sharp but no one’s in the woods, so they’ve fallen in the dark lay it on me, down bed feathers you’ve forgivin’ all that passed, but it doesn’t make you better, no don’t lay it on me, I don’t praise NO body if you’re lookin’ for attention don’t wave at the party nah, don't wave at the party if you’re lookin’ for attention don’t wave at the party I make my eyes close shut- no words in the air, but you’re lookin’ for a cut ? i’ll lay it on you, wound tight tethers, eyes spy on my body, please wrap your hands together cuz i’ll lay you under, brick bars, mortician, don’t touch my grave, you need a slip for permission, yes I make my eyes close shut no words in the air, but you’re lookin’ for a cut ? i’ll lay it on you, wound-tight tethers, eyes spy on my body, please wrap your hands together cuz i’ll lay you under, brick bars, mortician, don’t touch my grave, you need a slip for permission, yes you need a slip for permission, yes always, always, always always always making excuses abusin’ with mental bruises and claim to not know your true self, sorries useless, put up a deuces who would do this? who refuses to choose this heart who instead is used to usin’ their views to pull us apart transfuse your cells to me, make a clot let loose your fleas to me, make me swat! I give you the recognition you don’t deserve pop fly out my mouth, goes from north to south goes from north to south pop fly out my mouth, goes from north to south goes from north to south vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead and the room’s not dead and the room’s not dead and the room’s not dead and the room’s not dead vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead . . . vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead . . . . vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead . . . vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead . . . vent release my head so the mind pours smooth and the room’s not dead VENT RELEASE MY HEAD SO THE MIND POURS SMOOTH AND THE ROOM'S NOT DEAD VENT RELEASE MY HEAD SO THE MIND POURS SMOOTH AND THE ROOM'S NOT DEAD V E N T RELEASE MY HEAD SO THE MIND POURS SMOOTH AND THE ROOM'S NOT DEAD V E N T RELEASE MY HEAD SO THE MIND POURS SMOOTH AND THE ROOM'S NOT DEAD and the room's not dead
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I am the death of me Winter grass is deafening the rim of the basket catches the light of my salmon street the ground is so cold but it holds me more than the hands laying inside the house, I am the death of me Winter grass is deafening the rim of the basket catches the light of my salmon street the ground is so cold but it holds me more than the hands laying inside the house, I have the sun power, but I am the daughter how’s the desert stay cool when it wasn’t born with water, and the ground is so cold but it holds me more than the hands laying inside the house, I am the death of me I hope caterpillars swim in the pool I leave and I could live forever if I just die here if I just die here I could live forever if I just die here red spreading through the cracks I feared * * * I’m freer than i’ll never ever get to be they can tickle me with feathers til’ they’re centipedes cut me like a steak, i’m rare until the center bleeds, bleeds, bleeds, bleeds, bleeds don’t put me on a leash, don’t put me- i’m kneeling for the sheep I feed, i’m kneeling for the sheep I feed, i'm kneeling for the kneeling for the sheep * * * I am the death of me I am the death of me I am the death of me I am the death of me I am the death of me

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Rena and Julia met on September 9th, 1998, on their first day of kindergarten. This album is a celebration of 20 years of friendship, and creating art together, and creating memories.

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released September 9, 2018

renaps- all spoken poetry. drums on track 3.
julia sane- all beats. all vocals. toys on track 1. guitar on tracks 3, 5, and 8.

recorded, mixed, mastered by julia sane.

thanks to Jeffrey Leonard for speaking into a loop pedal on track 7. thanks to Grace Katen for feeding us and helping with the process. Thanks to Spongebob Squarepants.

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